Actual Users & Other Emails Received
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I just want to pass this along! My 19yr old niece mother of two ages
two and three give her children up for adoption because of this drug.
There is nothing the family can do to stop the adoption. This drug
was never prescribed to her by a doctor and she has been getting her
supply from a boyfriend. This drug caused her to not want to be in
the same room with her children, have paranoia and delusional thoughts
of her family, hates her entire family, moved out of her home and left
everything behind including her car.
JUST SO YOU KNOW IM GONNA MAKE IT AND ILL BE OKAY IVE OVERCOME METH 5 YEARS AGOSO THIS IS JUST SOMETHING ELSE IVE GOTTA OVERCOME
AND IM GONNA BEAT IT SO JUST PRAY FOR ME PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!
I KNOW YOU DONT KNOW ME BUT THANKS FOR LISTENENG
I just wanted to thank you for what you're trying to accomplish. We are the witnesses to an epdiemic that is going to shock our "medicated" nation.
In all fairness, I must confess that my wife and I were guilty of using Adderall in University. Never before and never after.
My oldest brother, 31yrs old, has been addicted/abusing adderall for the better part of 8yrs. It started in his last year of University and we've been witnessing a downward spiral ever since. Before he had encountered Adderall, his social drug of choice was Cocaine. Needless to say, he found the generic benefits of Adderall through improved/completed course work through a legal drug...This was in the early 2000's when it was (and still is) extremely easy to "manipulate" his way into receiving a prescription. Throughout the last 5 years we've witnessed him create these "larger than life" religious ideolotries and develop an acute lack of logical thinking. In this time period he's been a fanatical "Chistian", then became a Muslim, then back to Christianity, then became a Mormon and now back to Christianity. There have been times where we've witnessed him frantically flipping through the bible or the koran trying to express his ideas. None of which would have any coherent meaning to a devout believer of these faiths. We've gone through very agressive/violent outbreaks with him (experienced by myself, my middle brother, and my father) and he's assaulted 3 officers in a shoe store. Lucky for him we live in a relatively small town where the "politics" of the town played to his benefit due to the fact of who we know (no charges), etc... In the past we've witnessed him in obvious sorts of pyschosis and have tried so desperately to reason with him and love and support him.
Just this past weekend (and as we speak) he experienced the worst breakdown that we know of as of yet. Experiencing acute hallucinations/delusions and terrifying paranoia. To the point of "running for his life", "people's faces were changing", setting a 9" mounted sailfish free in the ocean, cutting all tv cables and removing all mirrors or pics from the walls or countertops in the condo that my parents have let him stay in..etc.
My family is at a loss of what to do. My parents, in particular, are extrememly loving/giving individuals and have probably (out of fear of losing him) enabled his lifestyle by providing a roof over his head and biweekly HEB cards for food. (He hasn't been able to support himself for years)..... I'm writing you this now and doing as much research as possible to educate myself as much as possible with how I can help in this situation.
For the first time ever, we had a type of "intervention" where he was to either get help now (admit himself into a treatment center) or be on his own. At first he surprisingly agreed with them that he needed help and that it was the Adderall. Then, midway through his phone interview with the treatment center he started backpedaling and basically, he's now in a cheap motel for two nights where at any moment he can call my family or the center to get help. Otherwise he's on his own.
Forgive me for venting/rambling but I want to make it clear that YOU are not alone and I fully support you in your mission. I have every intention to be active in the fight against these types of pharmaceutical drungs, especially Adderall. If I can join a list serve/organization or just receive relevant information, please let me know. This has to stop now.
A concerned brother.
I JUST CAME UPON YOUR SITE LOOKING FOR SOME ANSWERS ---- to help me.IVE BEEN TAKING ADDERALL SINCE 2001 AND 2 WEEKS AGO I THREW IT ALL AWAY. WHAT IN THE WORLD AM I GOING THROUGH? DO YOU KNOW WHAT I AM SUPPOSE TO BE FEELING LIKE? ALSO IS THIS SAFE? THANKS
I have a sister seeing a Psyhcologist and this
is what he is giving her.First of all mind you she is an alcoholic
and has been since she wasabout 20 and is 57 now:Adderol 40 mg I think
it is 20mg twice a day Valium as needed and they are 10 mg Effexor
I am so angry at
this Dr. How can he see she is not addicted. She likes it cause it
makes her loose weight but she is a bitch to live with. Just tell me
am I losing my mind here cause she driving me crazy. I cannot get her
in rehab against her word so that is out. She will not
I have been taking adderall since fivth grade. I am now twenty and still take it. I can't really funtion without it. I think even worse issuses are stuff like vyvance; a new amphetamine drug on the market.
I recently found that roommate #1 has been getting adderall from his older sister. Roommate #2 and I believe he has sometimes been taking as many as three pills a day. He has about 80% of the symptoms on your site. He has just run out of pills so we are going to see if he gets anymore. What can you suggest we do about this situation? We are giving him one more week before we sit down and talk with him(the problem with that is he is also minor OCD and has developed a sense that any criticism against him can be countered with one of his excuses). We are going to try this before we email his parents.What can we do to save this kid because I can tell he will have completely broken down by the end of the semester. Thanks.
I really need some information. My wife is a recovering meth addict and was a HEAVY user. She has indications of brain shrinkage and a host of other symtoms. Her doctor prescribed 2 Adderall (20mg dosage) three times a day.....120mg per day total.
She can barely function....can't remember anything and has become almost impossible to live with. I suggested that she wean herself from the drug but she refuses and I can't reason with the doctor. I suspect she is also purchasing additional quantities of adderall somewhere.
If you are a true adhd then the effects are the opposite of what you are mentioning
Not medicating a kid can be a very dangerous situation if for any reason they try the illegal version of methanphetamine and experience the calming effect it produces on true adhd people then they will auto medicate themselves on the wrong medication with the obvious effects these could bring it is true adderal is abused mostly by university students but you have to be aware of the effects of not medicating remember jails are full of non diagnosed adhds
I am doing a college project on Adderall abuse and found your website through google. I was diagnosed with ADD in 2002 and took Adderall until 2006 when I forced myself to live without it because it had changed my ability to function on a daily basis. I have since tried Vyvanse, Daytrana, Concerta, and many other medications. As a college student, I see a lot of Adderall abuse within my group of friends and among fellow students. For my final project in my Journalism course, I decided to do my final story on Adderall abuse because it is such a major part of the college scene today. Since exams are a week away, people have been begging me for my medication and I see first hand how out of control this epidemic of amphetamine abuse has gotten.
I was diagnosed with ADD and started taking adderall. It has been about 1 year & 1/2 and I have completely lost who I was. I hate it because when my room is messy I take adderall, when I need to study I take adderall, and now it is everyday. I used to not like taking it and didn't take it a lot...but I have began to take it everyday and feel stupid without it. I want off and I don't know how to get my life back.
All the things you said happen like "lose all normal perceptions", can they go away if I stop? Can I be normal again ever?
First off, thanks for this website. I was happy to see other people's emails and seeing that they deal with my same problem. I hope my story helps one more. I'll try and stick to the mainpoints to keep it short.
I began my adderall adventures as a senior in highschool. My friend took them like candy and he'd let me have some because I needed to either study or stay up late with him. I didn't think much of it at all. I liked it wasn't anything I needed to operate from day to day. But college was coming up and I knew if I wanted to do as well as I could I should get perscribed. So the end of the summer they gave me some concerta to start off with. After a few months I switched to adderall.
College began and I noticed that if I saved up my adderall and took a higher dosage when I had to study I did much better on tests. This wasn't bad except the more I took the more I didn't get to save which made me call in my perscriptions early. At this point my friend from highschool who was perscribed 75mg's a day (after taking it for 3 or 4 years) went to rehab for adderall abuse. But he didn't graduate High School and had many other problems so I thought I was doing fine.
I was only on 20mg's a day and calling it in early so I got my perscription upped, again, again, and again.
So now about two years have gone by. I'm perscribed 90mg's a day. I abuse the crap out of those pills each month. It controls me. I am not a fun person anymore. I am way less confrontational but thats because I have no feelings. I've got plenty of friends but none of them know the real me, the me before I got to college. I can't remember the last time I laughed so hard I cried or my face hurt. I lost weight and have no where near as much energy as I did. I study, and study, and study. But every detail of my life stress' me out 10 fold compared to what it should. I am slow in thinking and get confused all the time because my mind is racing. It is an addiction and it is ruining my life. I want to be normal again, I want to take this drug to cram for tests not because society thinks I'm too outgoing. It's hard when I stop for a few days because everyone thinks I'm drunk or high or something. It's said because I'm actually sober, not high on adderall for once.
I am sick of watching my life slip by in my zoned out world. I'm sick of being dependant on a pill. It is so much harder to stop when you think your the only one. But I've identified this addiction a while ago and have since been watching my self much more closely. I set a goal to have not take adderall daily, and lowered my perscription to 45 mg's a day. I'm hoping to kick this addiction and it helps reading other people's stories.
That is why this is a good site. People are looking to see if other people have the same problems as them or just determining if it is a problem. I looked other places but saw no personal stories. Keep these coming, it is effective. An updated blog would be an awesome attribute as well.